I am a sinner and its almost been 2 weeks now

And it continues until now. But i don't know what's happening. its been ignoring me since yesterday. im so frustrated. I know i shouldn't be. but part of me is hoping too much. its just not meant to be. sooner or later this has got to stop. Sigh. Im really down today. *sigh* please dont ignore me. please...

I am a sinner and it's been a week now.

Yes, it happens all the time. especially when im super nervous. damn u sweaty palms. each day, im making a huge sins. and i didnt even realise that it actually went to the next level yesterday. this thing really need to stop. right this instant. i cant take this any longer. haiz. dear devil, you're really good.

I am a sinner and its been 4 days now

Indeed i am a total sinner. I never expect this thing would happen and its actually happening now.it got worse. im feeling happy and guilty at the same time. sigh..seriously...i dont know which side i am. now i know how sinful a human can be. i did not mean to say that i committed no sins. b4 But this is the biggest sin i made so far. like really really big. i dont know what to do about it. its really beyond my control...aaaaaaaaaa...where's Harry Potter when I need him. I need him to use his magic spell to mend me.

I SERIOUSLY CAN'T BELIEVE IT. WE'VE BEEN FRIENDS FOR 3 MONTHS. AND LOOK WHAT HAPPEN NOW.

I hate u , best friend stealer.

Dont u just hate them? and i've never thought i would end up having that kind of situation.. i mean. HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE. I am too old to face that childish thoughts! ugh! Dear best friend stealer, to be honest, i have a lil tint of jealousy both of you. after all, the three of us used to be together whenever and wherever. Until u came in, stole her away from us and neglected us two like OMG. I HATE U! And the worse part is that, i'll get to see you everyday in our group!!!arghhh!!!

I remember those times when my best friend oat was stolen by this one girl and i was like " Hey bitch, u leave my best friend alone". But there's no way im going to say the same thing to that thief cause i had enough with that stupid thief. I dont give a shit anymore. From now and onwards, i'll leave you two alone. haaahhhhhhhh..i feel great after saying bad words when im pissed. Thank God, im at ease now.

reason of why im being here

is to kill those freaking long gap with paul. my next class will start at 4pm..sigh. cant wait to get home. hmm.

im not ready.

Yes so here i am now. 2nd week in my 3rd semester. we've become senior. Typical juniors bringing their umbrella everywhere, wearing their matric card & formal attire.lol..we used to be like them during our first year. Now, no one seems to care about anything.

Assignments! sigh...Heaps of 'em are coming in our way. I am starting to have migraines now. I had a bad beginning in my 3rd semester. some more, im currently disliking someone in my group. really pissing me off. sigh.. luckily i manage to calm myself. otherwise i would have gone mad and shout at her. Anyways, i had a great time with paul and zul today. heee...had our lunch at KFC, 1B.

hmm. nothing much to say. really not in the mood to blog actually.lols. sigh. well, i'll blog more when i have my mood back.^^

heeyyyy.........

ooooh maaaah gawwwdddddd...here i go again, been neglecting my poor bloggie for so long.. it must have been so lonely without me. well yea, i've been so busy working! mostly, i've been working for full time shift from 8am till 10pm. didnt get to enjoy my 3 months break. really, really damn tiring but im willing to do it for $$$$. hehehehe.. i dont know how and when, but im currently addicted to cosway's products. -_- and it's bad, cause it makes me feel so materialistic.

good gracious. i really dont understand how can the 3 months break ended so fast. my new sem will officially start on 13th of sept. aaaaaa....to be honest, i've really lost interest in my study. *gasp* OMG. i did not just say that. too bad i did. but really, my brain is rotting away. let's just hope its not for permanent. lalalalala.. okay, will update more soon! gotta watch mars! zai zai wo de airen!!